Today from NAFA,

Alright,so I saw this on the table this morning.
It got me excited,but then half upset. Can seriously FML. I mean literally,stab me. Now.

Dear students and parents,
The last weekend of November 2010 fourth term will fall on either 20 or 21 November.
Junoir dance and Junoir Drama will organise a performance. (YAY! :D )
Which involves students from elmentary year 2 level onwards.
(Blahblahblah the letter goes on.)

Then comes the Schedule for the practices,
March : 15th - 21st! <-- (wtf. why the 21st. FML. ) *bangs head on wall.
May : 31st
June : 1st - 10th
Sept : 6th - 12th
Nov : 15th - 21st

Okay the only upsetting part about the whole thing is,
There's practice on the 21st of march,fuck my life. ): and its 2 -3 hours of it.
The letter says no absense or late coming. Seriously,how can my life get any worse.
Its only the fucking beginning of 2010. Can someone just kill me please.


I just realised,the english used in the letter is terrible.
Aiyah byebye lah,I going to sleep naow. I beh tahan.
My life can never get worse than it is now,seriously fuck you 2010.
It feels like 2012 instead. THE WORLD IS COMING TO AN END CAUSE LIFE SUCKS.
Sleeping is probably the only solution for now,
to stop my mind from going through a mental breakdown,by thinking TOO much.
&at least when I sleep,I get to see you. Perhaps thats the closest I'll ever be to you,for now.


It hurts to fucking see how you're giving up on everything just like that,
are you so easily defeated? Or are you just weak. Weak is definately not you,so what?
Is it worth it? I don't know,to me it seems silly.
I understand how hard it is for you to breathe,I know how terrible it feels inside.
But don't you feel its not worth it doing so? Why is it,it seems like I'm the only one,
not wanting to give up yet,or are you too,still holding on to this? Questions after questions.
Fuck the world,Fuck it that my heart is never gonna stop breaking,Fuck it that no one cares anyway,
fuck it that I'm just here for no ryhme or reason,
fuck it that everyone scares me now. No one wants me okay,I'm so horrible.
I want to hide in a corner rolled up like a human ball and cry my eyes and heart out.
No one cares anyway,I might as well cry all I want in that little dark corner.
Wondering when the hell,is my heart gonna stop breaking and when,
do I have to stop mending back the fucking pieces,all by my fucking self.
Everytime it breaks,soon one day, its gonna stop fucking beating for anyone anymore.
Okay I've ranted enough,I take back my words. I don't mean a fucking thing I say,
I still care,so God damned fucking much. Yes. Waterfall has arrived,fuck my entire life.
Its rolling down my cheeks. Okay,my heart hurts,right now,this instant.


Faith is what gives you strength,
Faith is the light in your heart that keeps on shining,
even when its all darkness outside.