Friday, July 30, 2010

Feels like home,

Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

If I were a boy,

Even just for a day,I'd roll out of bed in the morning,
and throw on what I wanted and go drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls I'd kick it with who I wanted,
and I'd never get confronted for it 'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy,I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl,I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her 'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted,
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed.

Alright,headed out with Joey to get her phone fixed all big thanks to Big D!
Met up Tan huizi at "paper market" today,Baby came to join us for the day too.
Finally got my demi pointes,appeared that they have my size at the other outlet!
Then ION to get Joey's first high cuts,which I fucking love to have one too.
ZeeWang came along with us and we saw ZTB! Finally after such a freaking long time.
So Baby and I had this crazy idea to cross dress each other half way,so I had a new dressing.
Photos in Joey's phone,hopefully she uploads them soon and I'll grab them for posting.
Training tomorrow at 10 in the morning,recieved both good and bad news today.
Not exactly bad news,but not what I expected anyway. Right,I shall head to bed now.
Goodnight everyone,today's a Friday. So T.G.I.F! (:

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Don't wanna miss a thing,

Because ultimately,its all about being happy.
That is the only thing,I wished from me.
Nothing else really much matters,does it?

"Don't wanna close my eyes,cause even when I fall asleep
I still miss you babe,&I don't wanna miss a thing."

Would you dance,if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back?
I could be your hero baby,
you can take,my breath away.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Through it all,

It is what we really think of something,that makes something look that way.
Miscommunications with Mum just a moment ago,which sucks. Cause it leaves me in tears.
Fuck that I'm so easily emotional,it was just a simple talk and yet it had to turn out ugly.
I feel so mentally tired,of everything. Lessons again tomorrow,which I hope is good.
Headed out with Joey and ZZ today for a walk in town. I really love that pair of contemps,
but probably I should think twice about getting it,cause I have other things which I need,
that comes first. I need to remember to get a pair of new demi pointes tomorrow,and of course
a pair of new pointes. Exams are nearing and I'm starting to stress up. Pirouettes are my main
concerns,which obviously is the hardest thing to master right now. I need to buck up.
Sometimes I realise,I need to think twice before making any decisions. I make hasty decisions.
Alot and most of the time. I really,really hate the fact that I do things on impulse. Like buying
stuffs,which I probably don't need it,but just want it. The difference between a good to have,
and a need to have. So probably I shall think twice about getting my contemps for now,
though its such a pretty pair. Goodbye contemps,I'll get you as soon as possible when I have
the ability to.

If I walk would you run,if I stopped would you come?
If I say you're the one,would you believe me?
If I asked you to stay,would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say,so you won't leave me.

The world is catching up to you,
while you're running away to chase your dreams.
Its time for us to make a move,
cause we're asking one another to change.
Maybe I'm not ready,but I'll try,for your love.
I can't hide up above. I will try,for your love.
We've been hiding,enough.

If I sing you a song,would you sing along?
Or wait till I'm gone,oh how we push and pull.
If I gave you my heart,would you just play the part?
Tell me its a start of something beautiful.

Its time for us to face the truth,cause we're asking one another to change.
Its so bloody boring tonight,fuck.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

No longer,

Friday, July 23, 2010

"Do you know you actually have angels around you,
to protect you to make sure you're happy?
That each and everytime you sigh or feel sad,one dies.
So be happy&smile so that the angels won't die (: "

Something I used to tell someone,who used to be so important to me.
Yet,I'm never doing what I said.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

I'll get over it,

When the wrong words seem to rhyme,

Out with Joey today,finally got my phitens in hand! (:
Feel in love with a new pair of dunks,which is pink. (FML)
Met up ZeeWang and also New love. &Sam at gardens!
Chomps for dinner,which was fucking awesome once again,cockles,chicken wings,clams.
Next item on the list,cap and dunks! With bagpacks,officially my new needs.
Alright,gonna head to bed now. It was a long day,running from place to place.
Goodnight all,hopefully I'll get my dunks tomorrow! ): I really want my dunks.


This,is a need. Fml. I need this. ):

Somewhere,alone in the bitterness.

First lessons with Ms Xia today,which was pretty productive!
Bar work felt so tiring for the first time today,need to be precise,

precise and more precise. Lessons again on Friday and Saturday,
gonna have to make all these practices worthwhile and get throught the examinations.
My whole body is aching now,I need to soak my feet in warm water.
My toes are literally gonna cry! Never felt so tired after lessons,
like I've runned through ten rehearsals in one night.
Alright gonna head to bed now,really really freaking tired. Goodnight world. (S)

I feel very overly annoyed now,like seriously.
Don't you find it alittle too alike? Do your own thing,come on!
Okay,I am.officially.annoyed.with you. Bloody Bullshit.
OH MY GOD. This is really bothering me,alot.
You should know,I never enjoyed having a double me.

When it never really bothered me,when it doesn't affect me anymore.
So mother fucking affected for what? Not like as if it ever matters still.


Even the best falls down sometimes,even the stars refuse to shine&everything's in a mess.
How we always fail to compromise,never able to give up a little of our pride.
For something or someone we need so much in our lives. Yet at times taken for granted.
When things turn out ugly,we wished for time to turn back so we could fix it.
Then again,when we had it with us,what in the world we're we thinking?

People that mean the world to us,could just suddenly be out of our very own world.
Its because sometimes,to the world you're just one person,but to someone else,
you could be their entire world.

&You,used to be my entire world.
Before it all came crashing down.

&The cape of storms,echos the pain I feel inside.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Chasing Cars,

If I lay here,if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world?

Sing to me are the plans,that you have for me over again.

&I wish I was ignorant to certain things I don't wish to know.
4 more days,to the 6th. It just gets stuck there every 25th.
Like it was always meant to be,somehow or rather.

It was those used to be,
"Good morning texts,
kisses on the forehead,
really long goodbyes,
holding hands,
silence that isn't awkward,
waking up beside you."
That makes everyday feel so worthwhile.

&Its to difficult to be happy,
because we find it so hard to let go of things that makes us sad.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Monday, July 19, 2010

Tu amor,

Mi amor I'm not sure of the right words to say,
maybe these simple words will do best to best explain.
What I feel in my heart,what I feel more each day.
How to make you see,how to let you know.
How to say how to say,how I love you so.
With words you understand,how to get straight to your heart.

Its Monday again today! Boring Monday for me,how bout' you?
Alright so the week before was filled with lessons,finally caught up with the rest.
But I still need to learn the names of all the steps and plus positions,in FRENCH.
Alright so it was Kiefer's birthday celebration yesterday,which was so SWEET. haha.
Sonia I'm so nice to you right, " I don't wanna miss a thing~" Jess was being super retarded again,
as usual. HAHA,"Rou Suan" So anyway,works starting soon! Starting of next month!
Finally,something to do. Instead of rotting home and bumming around. (:
Alright,Imma go find something to eat. Major hungry.
Goodnight all! (L)

Tu amor,I will always be.
Tu amor,means the world to me.
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You're the one in my soul
that I live for,tu amor.
I'm so lazy to post now! Will update tomorrow. Goodnight! (S)

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Endless Summer,

Because every soul will find,another soul to love.

Finally attended lessons today after resting for 3 weeks,
Lessons were pretty much good today,stamina dropped though. Need to buck up!
Pirouettes,Grand jeté,Soutenu en tournant,Saut de chat,
Entrechat,Développé&Allegro/Grand Allegro. &Of course,dance studies.
Important components I need to strengthen on. Shall go hammer my demi pointe later.
Due to examinations,they even changed the flooring,but the leather smell is so damn strong.
&my diet ballerinas decided to switch off the air-conditioner while practicing,
made the air so stuffed. lolAnyway,I think I shall go soak my feet in warm water
and go sleep now. Body ache much. So Goodnight world,
hope everyone will sleep with a peace of mind. Cause my mind isn't.

Give me endless summer,Lord I feel the cold.
Rest assured my Angels,will catch my tears
walk me out of here,I'm in pain.

Have you ever,

Do you even know how exhausting it is,
to be smiling all day long knowing you're not happy at all?
I miss having to smile,without having a reason,
just because I am happy. &I just want to smile.

&I sang,
"This time,this place
Too long,too late,
who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance,just one breath,
just in case there's just one left.
Cause you know,you know,you know,
I love you,I've loved you all along.
I miss you,for being away for far too long.
I keep dreaming,you'll be with me and you'll never go."

I am so tired. :'(

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

What hurts the most,

What hurts the most,was being so close.
Having so much to say,then watching you walk away.

I am suppose to be sleeping now. Insomnia,you need to leave me far far away.
I'm sick of not being able to sleep every night,
sick of having tears to get me through the rough night.
I'm tired,so fucking exhausted. Why is it so difficult?
I need to find my life back. Little Miss Sunshine,come back asap.

On a brighter note,I'm meeting Bear this Thursday! (:
Okay Imma go force myself to fucking sleep.
Goodnight sweethearts. (L)

Oh yes! Happy 19th Birthday Clayman Mason Ng, yesterday (its pass twelve)
& today Happy 3rd Birthday my sweetest little darling,Girlie. (:

Monday, July 12, 2010


Girlies 3rd Birthday photos. (: