Sunday, January 31, 2010

I'm trying to fix it right now,
So stick by me alright and I'll make sure everything is okay.
Don't go?

Today was not good,

I really really do.

I missed dance,again. FML I'm gonna get so screwed when I get back on Sunday.
Came home after church today,and today's reading tells us,
We need Faith,Hope and Love. &Love is the greatest among all,love is never ending.
Today we're suppose to tell someone we love them,someone whom we haven't been telling,
and I am telling you right now if you read this,I love you and you know I do.
More than you'll ever know,I love you because I just do.
I slept more than i should be today and that is scary. Serious.
Sunshine was being a sweetheart today,I cried&he hugged me and said "Jiejie don't cry =/"
With his very small arms,but I could feel all his love. I love you so much,Caden Chin.
Today very much sums up a bad day,it wasn't good. Not at all,I feel so miserable,upset,
heartached,lost&all the other words you can think of. I felt like a huge part of me was gone.
I need to find it back&that huge part seems to be you. Little Miss Sunshine,where are you?
My day wasn't good,how about yours?

When I wake up,its you.
Before I fall asleep,its you.
Throughout my day,its you.
Every minute of the day,still you.
Now you know?

I'll try,for your Love. I'll try.
Sometimes,its just wrong to walk away,though you think its over

Knowing there's so much more to say.

Mission Impossible?

Alright,I have 10 fucken days to get this straight.
I know this is gonna sound so silly but I'm alr as silly as it is anyway.
I don't know if this is gonna work out but I really want it to. I need to be determined.
Now I only have 7 days accordingly. This is the last shot I get,its the last time.
&I lost my darling little miss sunshine! )': Please come back,I deperately need you.
Urgh,by the end of those 10 days,I must find Little Miss Sunshine&you.
Hopefully I do. Sounds so much like a Mission,Impossible. no? ): sigh.

Don't know if you'll ever come by this page,
But this is something I wanna share on blogger&for you.
Cause I guess Sunshine wants you to know too.
Its alr posted on livejournal,just in case you didn't go there,its here.
I'm sure you remember this little sunshine of yours whom you told me,
you were taking over (: and he pretty much misses you.
He wants you more than me I guess.
So Sunshine told me this,2 Sundays back.

"Rachael Jiejie,how come D korkor so long never come and play with me? "
"D korkor may not come over again. =/ You miss him huh?"
"Why? He busy working is it? Ya,I miss him alot alot. =/ "
"What if he don't come over again? ): "
"No jiejie,I know D korkor is busy working. (: he will come when he is free! "
"&When he comes over,I want to show him my Doremon family,

the Doremon he give me not lonely alr :D"

Heard him? he melted my heart with those sentences.
I've learned to believe the way he does it,natural optimism takes over.
&I'm not leaving for anywhere,not leaving you. My truely right one,is you.
Don't give up so fast,after fighting so hard. Its silly. I thought I was silly but so are you.

God wants me to know today,that love has no boundaries.
For Love is unconditional,or there is no love.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Little Miss Sunshine,

Just where are you,little miss sunshine? )':
Come back to me,please?

Just who am I kidding?

Who am I kidding,I'm just not okay am I?
Are you? IFMY )':

Between now and then till I see you again,I'll be loving you. Love me.
Never thought not having you here now,would hurt so much.
I'm not doing okay,how about you? ): Why is it,I can feel that you aren't either. =/

In simple words it means,don't let me go if it hurts you.
&I'm not leaving for anywhere because the truely right one,is you.

Yesterday was the 29th, and its the 5th.
I celebrated in my heart,but am I not suppose to anymore?

Thursday, January 28, 2010

When its really sad,

Quoted from Angeline's (By John Mayer),but edited.

"The Saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad.
You know,when the sad tries to bite his or her lip and not cry,
but smile and go " No,I'm happy as long as you are."?
Thats when its really sad."

Love me,

If you get there before I do,don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through,I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down,darling wait and see.
In between now and then till I see you again,I'll be loving you. Love me.

I Believe,

& I still do,believe that we didn't fight so hard for nothing.
Believe me and believe us? When there's a will,there's always a way.
I don't believe that there isn't any other choice,that it has to be this way?

Stay close,Don't go.

A smile that hides a broken heart,

Because when I have you,I forget the world.
Hold on to me and never let me go,will you?

Hi everyone,I know its been a long time.
But for the time being,I'm back to Livejournal.
Anyway,life hasn't been good to me.
Has not been,at all. Things aren't going very well.
Today is the 22nd day,since I left blogger alone.
Everyone has their posting today,I hope everyone is happy to be at their posted area.
Today I had a very nice long talk to this very old close friend of mine,
and I've come to realise alot on love,and what goes on in a relationship.
We're called silly,but at the end of the day,
we just want the one we love to be happy,no?
For that matter,I'm not okay. Not okay at all&I don't wanna say why.
I don't want to talk much about anything on blogger right now,
so its gonna be left blank.
Being happy seems to difficult lately,I want everyone to be happy.
Especially you,Dear one.

&Dear one,
I love you more than you'll ever know
and a part of me dies,when I let you go.
Don't let me go if it hurts,cause I don't want you to either.
Just so you know,I've never left. I'm still here,for you.
Call me silly,call me foolish,but no matter how hard,You're worth it all.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Far Away,

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance ,Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know I love you

I have loved you all along
And I miss you ,Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all ,I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know I love you

I have loved you all along
And I miss you, Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know I wanted, I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say that I love you
I have loved you all along And I forgive you
for being away for far too long
So keep breathing 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing,Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing,Hold on to me and never let me go

I believe,we didn't fight so much for nothing.
I trust,I believe,I have the confidence.
I'll be waiting. Till then,this space will be left empty.
Bye Blogger for now,and my babies thank you for cheering me up,I'll be okay.
In fact,we will be okay. (: I love you all,the same.
I wouldn't know,what i'll ever do without either one of you.
Each of you takes a space in my heart,will always be there.
We're gonna be just fine.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010


The pain,excruciating pain inside. My.heart.Hurts. Its been broken.
As it crashes down on me and now,I can hardly breathe can you see?
Don't be too pessimistic,life isn't all that bad at times,I'm the optimism of your life,
I'll make you see the brighter side of it,I'll make you know and understand,
Life when there's you and me,will never be dark and cold. There is passion in this world,
I'll make this a special one. So stick by me,and i'll make sure everything will be okay.
I love you dear one,no matter what. Take your time,no pressure.
I miss you dear one,so much. You know,I've never left your side.
Yours truely,has never left your heart.
But for now,I'm leaving mentally. Till then.

Just sometimes,

I pray,that dear God will give all of us the strength,
to pull through &I believe he will.

When the fighting gets tough,you just got to fight a little harder.
Expect the unexpected,cause things aren't always what they seem.
Life isn't all that bad,cause I still have you in me&me in you. (:
&You never fail to make my day,I've learnt to be contented with the simplest things.

I'm gonna just try a little harder &we'll all get through this together,
with a little more faith. (:

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I believe.

I believe in faith,I believe in you,I believe in us.
If dreams were the only places I'd see and feel you,I wish i never had to wake up.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

You're my kind of beautiful,

Cause i know there will be the 5th and the 6th and so on and so forth.
Coming this far,through so much. Through the rains,the pains the fun and Joy.
We are here right now, though times are difficult for us now. We don't meet that often,
we don't see each other as often as we use to,but definately my heart is always there for you.
And you'll always occupy this space in that tiny heart of mine,with you my heart feels full.

Nights are getting cold,without you beside me. &you just don't know how much i miss you,
when you're not around. But absense makes the heart grow fonder isn't it?and indeed,
I love you very much,so much so even if you don't know. I'll tell you again,that Baby,I love you.
You're the only reason why I'm smiling,the only reason why i'm not giving up and holding on.
Because you give me the strength to keep going on,you showed me you are worth so much more,
than this. All I want is to spend a long and happy life with you,we're not together,but our hearts
definately are. You showed me,you're different from all the other guys,you're special.
Unique in your own way.The very special one,I want to spend my life with.
Grow old together and walk on together till the end of time,like how i wished that this never had to end. You're fast asleep right now,and I won't know if you'll ever come across this post of mine for you,but these are the words from my heart. No matter what happens in the near future ahead of us,I'll always be thankful to have you in my life. So Baby,I love you always. (L)

Friday, January 1, 2010

Double Happiness?

First day of the year, and also Grand's 83rd today (L)
Happy New year guys and Happy Birthday Grand. I love you. (:
Lunch with the Pong's today at orchard Central,awesome lunch.
I finally get to meet both the A brothers at the same time.(Y)
Plus my two little monsters,how great it is to have lunch with the entire family(:
Sad to say Baby couldn't join us today,Granny even asked him to join. (:
But poor boy has to work again today! =/

Anyway,Happy 83rd Birthday Grand.

I've been roaming around,been looking down and all i see,
Cause you know that i could use somebody.