Falling a thousand feet per second,and you still take me by surprise.

I'm not perfect,but I keep trying
cause thats what I said I would do from the start.
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?


As long as I can feel you holding on,I won't fall
even if you said I was wrong.

As long as you're holding on,I won't fall.

Time check, 1:50 am. Tuesday 30th November.

The last of November and hello December,which also states Christmas and end of 2010.

Back to morning shift later on at MSC,today has been wonderful at least in the evening.

Though the 2nd part of work today was entertaining,as much as I'd like tosay,I pretty

much enjoyed work. But it was very much fucked in the morning. &I hate it.

How I wished sometimes,I never had such screwed up mornings. At times when you know,

that everything was never gonna be easy. But you just hoped that,you could have some

quiet time of your own. The screamings,the moodswings. I don't wish to say this,but hell

I am starting to hate my job. At times. I don't know what to say,insomnia is acting up

again. But at least I can say,this November has been really awesome.

"This life is what you make it. No matter what,you're going to mess up sometimes&its a

universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up.

Girls will be youre friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember,some come,

some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends.

Don't let go of them. As for lovers,they come and go too. And I hate to say it,but most of

them,actually pretty much all of them,are going to break your heart. But you can't give up,

because if you do,you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you

whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once doesn't mean you're gonna

fail at everything. Keep trying , hold on and always believe in yourself. So keep your head up,

keep your chin up and most importantly,keep smiling. Because life's a beautiful thing&there's

so much to smile about."

-Marilyn Monroe

Meet my favourite,Stitch (:

When I see you,the world stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you. There's nothing else.

No noise,no other people,no thoughts or worries. The world just stops, and its a beautiful place,

and there is only you.

How did I not figure that out?

Therapy,

Sunday 28th November 2010, Currently 12:27 am.

I spent my ever first Saturday in many long months,having no lessons nor having to work.

Sleeping and lazying home with Boyf. Having spending the rest of the night with family.

Today is Sunday and I'm back to church at 9am later on. Monday back to work,honestly

I think my life has somehow turned into a routine. Or somewhat a playlist. The same thing

repeats itself over and over again. I am somehow or rather sick and tired of it,great. Such

short attention span I have for my job. I hope my Sunday turns out fine. &Anyway,have a

great trip over to L.A my favourite girls! Though I was suppose to join you guys. Alright,

I think I need some shuteye now.

Tonight feels especially quiet. I feel cold and I'm not sure why.

I feel like my mood is on a roller coaster ride. It goes up,and down.

So far down that,I'll blow at the slightest things that hit me.

Deep thoughts are running through my mind,&cramps can't make this night any better.

I honestly hate nights like these. Why is my heart so heavy?

&I don't know whether or not to speak to you anymore,Mum.

It kills me having to speak to you every moment,and before we know it,

we're screaming at each other again. That kills me,if you don't ever realise.

You do things for me,when I ask you to when you're happy to do so.

Then when everything turns bad,you fire it back at me. Telling me you're no slave of mine,

that I have to get things done myself if I want to get it done. I'm tired,of explaining myself.

Time and time again.When it sucks to know,its been at least 6 years of trying hard to

change myself. &all I get back is telling me,how much I'm still the same. I just don't know,

what to do anymore.

Honestly,tell me. What is the fucking point?

I am so fucking exhausted. Really.

Here we go again,

Jessica's 23rd,

My very awesome day,with my very awesome company ♥

Therapy,

Happy 24th to Jess today (: Its the 23rd of November today.
Finally back from work,which was a long tiring day. New staff to join us,
training again as usual. Headed to work with a heavy head,
Baby came to meet me for dinz (: The day was pretty much,average.
So tomorrow's Jess birthday celebration with the usuals,
finally a proper outing day with the rest after such a long time.
So I'll be heading to bed prettysoon. So well,goodnight guys. (L)

Took my hand,touched my heart.

Held me close,you were always there.

By my side,night and day. Through it all,baby come what may.

Swept away from on a wave of emotion,we're caught in the eye of the storm,

whenever you smile,I can hardly believe that you're mine.

This love is unbreakable,its unmistable. &Each time I look in your eyes,

I know why. This love is touchable,a feeling my heart just can't deny.

Each time I look in your eyes baby,I know why. This love is unbreakable.

Share the laughter,share the tears,we both know we'll go on from here.

Cause together,we are strong. In my arms,that's where you belong.

I've been touched by the hands of an angel,

I've been blessed by the power of love.&whenever you smile,

I can hardly believe that you're mine.

This love is unbreakable,its unmistable. &Each time I look in your eyes,

I know why. This love is touchable,a feeling my heart just can't deny.

Each time you whisper my name baby,I know why.

This love is unbreakable,through fire and flame. When all these is over,

our love still remains.

This love is unbreakable,its unmistable. &Each time I look in your eyes,

I know why. This love is touchable,a feeling my heart just can't deny.

Each time you whisper my name baby,I know why.

Each time I look in youreyes baby,I know why. This love is unbreakable.

Cause when I'm with you,I'll make every second count.

Cause I'll miss you,whenever you're not around.

Riot,

This is really frustrating. Has anyone ever noticed?
I mother fucking hate Mondays. ):

The New Episode,

Great Job guys,we finally made it! Love y'all in way down deep. (L)

&Big thank you to Baby,Joey,Zeewang,Tongzie&ZTB

For coming down today. I love you guys.

20th November 2010,"New Episode"

&Also thank you for the lovely roses,Kaiyuan&Jasmine (:

20th November 2010,

&it,has finally arrived.

You found me,

Right,so its Wednesday 17th Nov. Rehearsals at 9am later and I'm still wide awake.

Updating this space of mine that I've left blank for so long. The big day is in 3 days,

I'm pretty much excited for it,rehearsals this week straight. Can't wait to see the ballerina's

later on. 3:04 am now and I'm hungry for maggie noodies again,this sucks so bad. I'm so

lazy to get to the kitchen and yes etc,etc. So today was pretty good,caught "Red" with Baby,

much of an awesome movie. &yes,that silly boy got me my stitch phone casing! Did catch me

by surprise,but! That meant,he skipped a few lessons in school! But anyhow,I still love you.

And thank you so much for cute stitch. (: I'll take good care of him. Oh yes,two days back

we paid a visit to my favourite god-son. Its been so long since I visited him,&beeps mum

cooked us supper. Mee sua rocks \m/ Alright I feel abit angsty now,why. This is shit.

OKAY FEELING VERY FUCKED UP. Why ah? Ah k,I'm going to cook my maggie noodies.

Goodnight guys,love y'all. (L) See you pretty ballerina's in the morning.

Nabeicheebyesibehfuckedup. you.