New beginnings seep into you,

It its in you,to lay down the fears that hold.It its in you,to find your way back home.
Tuesday morning in 8 minutes,11:52 pm right now. A Monday night,with so much to love. The warmth of having your loved ones with you. &Yes,definitely,Scottie boy. A new addition to the family! (OVEROVERDUED)
Its Wednesday night today,almost a week and a half since Scottie boy has been here. Finally got him settled down in his new home and I'm guessing he loves it here already! Finally got him a little toilet trained,this naughty boy and his cheeky nonsense. Brought Gogo to have his little meet up with my little boy and awww they had a long stroll together. He has a big brother now. Well,my week has been going well. My weekend looks awesome,&I really can't wait for it to arrive. Hope you guys had a great week too. Much love. (L)

What keeps my heart melted,

Scottie boy's little paw.

They ask,why do I apologize all the time,whether I'm right or not.

Its because,I love you more than my pride and I need your more than my life.

I don't wanna miss a thing,

"I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad.

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.

Oh, all I wanna do is grow old with you.

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches.

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.

Oh, It could be so nice to grow old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you. Give you my coat when you are cold.

Need you, feed you. Even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in the kitchen sink.

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.

Oh, I could be the man who grows old with you."

I'm sorry for everything,I really hope you forgive me.

&I always sing,

"All that I'm after is a life full of laughter,as long as I'm laughing with you,

all that still matters is love ever after,after the life we've been through,

cause I know there's no life after you."

127 hours and Astons,

Who cares Baby,I think I wanna marry you.

Hello world&Good morning,its Wednesday morning at 2:47 am.

Crashing Boyf's place for the night,&I guess my spot of the bed has been officially taken away by Scottie! Kinda sad,but somehow its really cute that they're sleeping together. HAHA I really need to show you guys a photo of it,but its really hard to capture the moment due to Scotties excitement. Every movement is a chance to excite him again. Even the slightest movement made,is enough to trigger him. So I'm baby-sitting this little boy right now,until boyf wakes up to study then it'll be my turn to be sleeping by then. Which would be in 7 minutes! (: Yay?

HAHA THEY LOOK LIKE THAT!

Just that its a guy hugging a little dog. In total opposites.

127 hours,Monday.

Tuesday morning and I have to be sleeping soon,morning shift tomorrow at MSC.

So Boyf,Joey and I caught "127 Hours" today in the evening after Joey's work. Pretty normal movie,which had a REALLY REALLY GORY SCENE. Which almost killed Joey and I,not to mention Boyf. So you can actually imagine how bad the scene was,anyway had Astons for dinz,which had been a long time since we ate there. Back to my place later on,which was a total waste of time actually but I made good use of it. AND GUESS WHAT,apple is back. (: I finally have a temporary Ipod to use,utterly thankful.

I have photos to upload,but they're with Joey so well. I'll just have to wait till she gets them uploaded. &I'm kinda excited for Saturday,plus I finally decided on getting my housing! Alright,I really have to head to bed now so,goodnight y'all have a good Tuesday. X

I'm thankful that I had.

Sometimes love comes around,

It knocks you down just get back up when it knocks you down,knocks you down.

Hi all,its 1119 pm right now and I'm waiting for my second meal of the day or should I say first cause it was pretty little for a meal. Anyway I'm back at boyf's place,watching him sleep. Which somehow makes me feel calm for a reason. Lessons today were extra productive,for the matter I even got over exhausted to even finish the lesson.

The past few days have kept me in long thoughts and deep thinking,which I've come to realize loving someone makes you give up everything for them. Like how they say it

"Everyone is gonna hurt you,you'll just have to find the one worth suffering for"

But lately,the cause of hurt I've been giving out is unacceptable. I need some change in myself,to amend all the hurt I've brought to everyone around. It maybe unintentional,and some of them weren't. But at the end of the day,I realized I've changed to someone I myself cannot recognize when I look into the mirror. I need to be more understanding to everyone,and there are always nice and simple ways to solve a problem.

Especially to G,

I know I've been throwing my temper and my attitude around lately. I haven't been how I used to be and honestly,I'm pretty sure this isn't the me you fell in love with. I've been acting like a little bitch (or to those out there I'm already one it seems,but you can keep your comments to yourself.) I keep complaining and I know most of it is really my issue. But at the end of the day you know,only when we get all heated up then I'd learn my lesson. &I never listen to what you always correct me from,but now I really want to learn from the mistakes you've pointed out and I really don't want us to be having such arguments anymore. I always thank God for you,for everything you've done for me. &For loving me at the end of every single day,even after heated arguments and such a tiring day even though I've made it worse. You know,I honestly don't need any gifts from you,but probably you could just wrap yourself up for me every Christmas and 21st of March + Valentines and I'll be more than contented. I love you&I really really do.

Well,thank the Lord for another day I spend with you be it doing anything or nothing at all. I still love the day and am very thankful for it. Sleep well. I'll see you when supper arrives.

Goodnight Guys,hope you guys had a great weekend as its coming to an end. (L)

"Missing someone is your hearts way of telling you,you love them."

Cause life's not a bed of roses,

I'm constantly getting numbed by almost everything in my everyday life. &Tonight,is honestly not one of those out of the blue nights.

My internet's been down lately,or I should say I can't connect to my home internet. Which honestly kinda irritates me. Besides,I've nothing much to blog about lately so might as well leave this page as it is for awhile. Haven't been well for the past few days,but have already recovered and now back on track to my Char Mee and instant noodles for supper.

Boyf's on exam week,with that said. Time is taken wayyyyyyyy off for the both of us,he spends the entire night studying&I spend the entire night watching "America's Next Top Model" / "Family Guy"/ "Teen Mom" / "American Idol" thats my night for the week. No more late night movies,no more late night supper together. This will go on till the end of next week,OR the starting of the week after next. Kinda kills me,but hell. What choice do I have,he needs to get his ass to his books. Alright,maybe I should be getting some sleep now. So,goodnight. Have a good Friday. Too bad I don't "TGIF" anymore,cause I don't feel anything special about Fridays anymore,life's getting too mundane.

WHAT ON EARTH HAPPENED. DAMN.

If I am lost for a day,try to find me.

If I don't come back then I won't look behind me.

All of the things that I thought were so easy,just got harder and harder each day.

If I could only let you know,I'd give up everything I own,for just one more day with you,

there's nothing I wouldn't do.

Happy Valentine's Day to all my babies!

I love y'all very much.

Hope all my couple babies had a great Valentines.

X

"Sometimes,I just want to lock myself up in my room,

lay on the floor,listen to music,

and cry until there are no tears left to cry."

Heartwrenching,

Times when you get really tired of trying to explain yourself and making yourself feel like you're wanted here. You ask me where my home is,it was right there with you,till things have changed. Or perhaps,after you have changed. This place used to be my home,a place I'd come to when I'm at my lowest,when the whole world crumbles down on me,when there's no place left to hide. But now?I'd rather be somewhere else than back here,all I wanted was a simple conversation with you. I came home knowing,that if all else fails on me,I'd find a place I can always count on,or even someone I can always lean on even if the world turns away. But things have changed. I don't find comfort in telling you my problems,I don't find love in this family anymore. I may not be the smartest one in the family,I maybe brainless,like how you say I always am. Every achievement made is just a "Should be"/"Suppose to",nothing I've done right was ever recognized. I do the most outrageous things you'll ever come across,my words are always lies. No matter how hard I try to mend back the mistakes I used to make. &When I try to start a conversation with you,it ends up wrong. My good intentions always taken as bad,nosy,or not even my fucking business to begin with. I live on myself,literally. Not a single cent from you,and I have not rant a word about that. I understand situations,I just probably fail at solving them,cause each time I try,we end up in one big mess. I hurt your feelings,I break your heart. What about you,when you hurt my feelings and tear my heart apart time and time again with the words you say. You know,I'm really,honestly,exhausted.

I have too many things crashing on me,& I can't cope.

&My weakness is,I care too much.

"A home is a place you grow up wanting to leave,

and grow old wanting to get back." - John Ed Pierce

But honestly,I don't feel this way anymore.

"Dear Mom,

I may always say bad things behind your back,

Do things that are definitely out of your will,

Go to places without your permission and I've

said many things that might have hurt you alot.

But believe me mom,I really love you so much,

even though I'm not so great in expressing it.

Love,

Me."

Friday nights,

Tomorrow is Saturdayyyyyyyyyyyy,

Back to pointing toes and tutu skirts.

"Love always and deeply."

Mind over matter,

if you don't mind,it doesn't matter.

Really????

Spaces,

Maybe sometimes,we all need a little space and time on our own to breathe,think and realize.

We all get exhausted,and you know,I really understand.

Hello Tuesday,

So its back to school for a few of you. &As for me,back to work. This has been truly the best new year I've ever celebrated. Sadly,happy times are about to end and we all have to go back to doing whats important to us. Registration for school has started and yes,its time for me to head back to my studies again. Today has been wonderful,or should I say yesterday since its pass twelve. Caught "Mr&Mrs Incredible" the night before with Boyf,crashed his place for the night and over to Joey's place after,headed out for lunch and off to pick boyf from school. Back to Nex,had dinner and all headed back to my place. Boyf's soundly asleep now,I'm not sure if he's mumbling anything or he even knows what he's saying right now,HASHBROWNS? Haha alright,I think I'll go get him some food to eat. Goodnight guys,have a great Tuesday ahead. (:



It seems like,I can never leave you aside.Anymore.

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