No longer,

Happy Birthday Mummy,its the 26th December today. I love you.

But that aside,I'm losing myself.

I don't know,what the fuck I'm doing anymore. Weak,so fucking WEAK. I don't even know if the

decision I made was the right one,every night is another hurdle to overcome. This isn't me,this

isn't what I intended everything to be. So confused,its like I'm lost. I see myself sinking into

something I'm so afraid of,I can't get a grip of myself. I'm losing all strength to hold on.

This is so mother fucking painful.