Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to,I’m going to hold on to that

&I found you.

Jacq's Farewell,

Gabriel Ilovemyabc

Stop breathing,if I don't see you anymore. X

Today,is a deep reminder how I realized,how much we do for each other because of the love we have for each other. The past week has made me realize how much we have to treasure the people we have in our lives. &Today, in fact has made the most impact in my life that I have to treasure everyone I have right here and now,I have to make time for everyone and everything.

First of,

Gabriel Ilovemyabc,the current love of my life. I know I've been a pain in your ASS and I've been really really horrible. But today,I hereby promise you I will never make you angry again,or at least try not to anymore. I know I've not been sensitive enough to you and how you'd feel in whatever I say or do. But Baby,always remember I'll always love you and will always be. You're too much for me to ever lose and I can honestly say,I can't live without you anymore. Although many people say that's bullshit. But if you try living a day in your life,having someone you know or actually close to you disappear forever and you'll never see them ever again,you'll figure out why I'd be saying so much. In short,they passed on. You'd know how you'll suddenly have this horrid fear in your life that you'll lose someone somehow suddenly. Its a lesson learnt that life is FUCKING fragile and make full use of it. Love with all your heart,live every second to the fullest. I cannot again EMPHASIZE how short life can be. But in other words,Baby I love you very much. More than words can explain,I'm terrible sorry for all the mistakes I've made and all hurtful words I've said. I love you. X

My week has been great,it'll always be when boyf is around. Then again,I cannot emphasize how much of a great boyf he is. One who'll make you smile when you frown,one who'll never leave unless you told them to. CNY shopping in progress,I'll finish up the final touches with boyf next week! I finally have to go church tomorrow. That means I'll have to be sleeping soon but one bad news before I leave. I JUST FUCKED MY IPHONE UP,that means byebye apple and hello BB,suppose to have both,but it doesn't matter anymore. No point when everyone else is a BB user isn't it? Actually no,only because boyf is. (:

Before I wrap up this post,I'd like to tell all that are in my life. My family,friends and beloved boyf. I love y'all very very much,thank you for being there for me each and everyone of you. I cannot live without either one,have my hearts and kisses you all. (L)

Once again,we've experienced how fragile life is.

Today and tomorrow makes a huge difference. This just teaches us,how we should treasure the

ones we have with us now. There aren't many tomorrows in our lives.

R.I.P Friend,although I've never really known you.

Like everyone says,you would be in a better place of happiness.

Where faith and love will keep us strong,

Wednesday morning at 1:32 am,counting down 1 week more to CNY.

Major shopping with Joey today although I only bought ONE item out of the many things I've

browsed through the entire day. BUT! I am very satisfied with it. (: Practically finished the entire orchard road in one day,need to head down again tomorrow. Hopefully something out of it again,or I'll just have to bang my head against the wall. Still haven't received my parcel which is in total 2. Hopefully the mail isn't lost and I'll get them safely by CNY. I have photos today,but sadly it isn't with me and I'll have to wait for Joey to get them uploaded,which might take awhile. So this post will be left with only words for today.

Today is also the day where my dearest Jacq flies off for Aussie permanently,till she comes back

again in Dec. Its been 10 years since I knew her,from ballet when we were 8-9? The performances we participated in together,times we made inside jokes about we know who. Seems like lessons are gonna be way quieter without her around,no one to make stupid jokes with me during lessons anymore! Anyway,if you ever read this girl,I'd like to tell you thank you for all the talks we have every lesson,all the fun you brought to a boring rehearsal. I love you&I'm going to miss you. But hell,I'm pretty sure I'll see you again someday. Be a good girl in Aussie,don't be an Aussie AHLIAN alright. &REMEMBER TO TAKE DANCE THERE! DON'T

STOP DANCING! THIS IS A VERY HUGE WARNING TO YOU.

Alright I think I'll go sleep,its raining heavily and it seems like a storm is coming.

Goodnight hunniebunnies. X

THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT.

Damn it,what is the point of asking if you don't believe what I say?!
Honestly you'd rather trust an outsiders words then to trust your own daughters words.AND NOW YOU TELL ME I DON'T DESERVE THE RIGHTS TO BE CRYING?! WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME. LIKE SERIOUSLY. I ALREADY TOLD YOU WHAT YOU WANTED TO KNOW AND YET YOU TELL ME YOU WANNA ASK SOMEONE ELSE INSTEAD.THEN WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT OF ASKING ANYWAY?

WHAT IS UTTERLY WRONG WITH YOU GOD DAMN IT?!

Fuck it that I'm such a huge liar in your heart alright. FUCK IT.

I can totally forget all about finishing my stuffs within this week.

TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE.

That everything,is never as,it seems?

Let time freeze,

Things come to a turn when nothing much is going to change the way you feel about something,

even so,someone. When you've start to realize,there's someone in your life you can never really

live without. We've gone through nights of heart wrenching talks,heartbreaking hours. Unfinised

tears,times we felt we'd never pull through. But here we are still,just proves as much,that all these just makes us stronger,perhaps at least I feel so. Please always remember,you're more than the world to me,in short,you're my world now. X

The past week has been good,been out with Boyf and beeps day and night. Haha alright,maybe most of the days. Since Joey's busy with her exams,I've gotten most of my stuff done! Cam done for servicing,I can resume taking photos and flooding them on this rotting blog of mine. Alright,CNY is round the corner and here I am still with nothing in hand,out shopping and always end up empty handed. Monday,I definately must get everything done. I have my room to settle still,which would probably take up a day and a half. Also,Jacq's leaving soon and so is Rox Baby. Two of the many lovely people in my life,I'll miss you both so so much. That aside,I've tons of photos for the week! &I really have to head to bed very very soon,church tomorrow morning. God how I love my life. Goodnight hunnie bunnies. (L)

MSC







The other day at Beepsy's





















The last and final outing with Jacq.

I'd rather have bad times with you,than good times with someone else.

I'd rather be beside you in storm,than safe and warm by myself.

I'd rather have hard times together,than to have it easy apart.