Like no other,

So I had a really fun week plus weekend,big credit for that goes to my sweetheart boy. Who came to pick me up after my placement classes the other day with @xoangeline ! Then we had a movie marathon the very next day, "Wu xia" and "Bridesmaids" pretty awesome shows. Had steamboat also on Friday night with the hunniebuns at my place,so school's starting on Monday and I'm halfway through getting ready for it. Excited yet not again,something IS utterly wrong with me. Nonetheless , how thankful I am to have such a sweet boy who made my weekend and week a good one before school officially starts. And therefore I have to sleep now cause I'm going to have to wake up bloody early tomorrow. ): Goodnight guys,I hope y'all had an awesome weekend too. X

Happy Birthday Hunniebunnie! X

Day 1,

Orientation's over and I have placement class at 10 am later,how the hell am I going to survive freaking school. Someone please fucking kill me. ):

You'll know the feeling,

If you've ever been in love,

How you feel insane and time passes so slowly when you're not with them. How they dominate your thoughts and you can almost feel them with you. How you can't help but smile when you know they're thinking about you. How when things aren't going well it drives you insane,and you can't seem to think straight. How when they're no longer yours,you miss them so much and you feel that dull emptiness in your chest. Most of all,you'll know how they're literally everything to you, and there's nothing you can do to ever change that. 

0% excitement,

I haven't had a good week,and I'm one day away from orientation and I kinda don't want to start school anymore.

SOMEONE PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME,

HOW IS IT THAT GUYS ARE ALWAYS SAYING WE GIRLS ARE SO TWO FACED AND YET THEY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME?! SERIOUSLY,FUCK YOURSELVES. SAYING YOU GUYS ARE STRAIGHT FORWARD TO ONE ANOTHER? SAYING YOU SAY YOUR DISPLEASES WITH ONE ANOTHER STRAIGHT TO THEIR FACES? OH PLEASE,SAVE ALL YOUR BULLSHIT FOR YOURSELF. WHAT THE FUCK OKAY,WHAT THE FUCK. TAKE YOUR FUCKING LIES SOMEPLACE ELSE. I DON'T BUY THEM ANYMORE,CAUSE I'VE BEEN PROVEN SO.FUCKING.WRONG.


SOMEONE SLAP ME AWAKE PLEASE. MY FUCKING GOD.

Never a priority,just an option.

Do I have to start being independent and not try to rely on anyone to hope that anyone will even be there when I fucking fall? To know that even the one I believe will catch me when I fall to know,will never ever be there? Where are you when I really need you,where are you when I lose myself,where are you when no one is there,where are you,when you're the only one I can turn to.


Fuck myself,cause I am such a weakling because I am such a loser,because I am everyone's option,but they will always be my priority.

Not okay,

Its the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you. When it hits you,I mean it really hits you, all these thoughts and questions rush through your head at once. A sad emotion starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder.

What if for some reason things don't work out? - How are you possibly going to live without them?

Someone that was once a stranger is now the only person you know at the back of your hand. Someone you once had no emotions for,now has the power to break your heart. Someone you never used to hang out with,now owns most of your time. Someone you never thought you'd love,now owns your entire heart. Someone you once lived without,you now wish to hold onto forever.

Words are always just empty promises.

To think I'm now a few days away from orientation and one week away from starting school and I haven't even spent my week properly,not even using my week properly before I actually start school and all these will eventually have to fade away,no more sleeping in late,no more snuggling my bolster till I wanna get up,no more hanging out as and when I want to,no more freedom to be exact. Well for the future ahead of me,I don't exactly have a choice. But I'm now one week lesser to enjoying myself and I haven't even done anything

So much for enjoying myself to the fullest before school starts,nothing is working out. I should blame myself.

Because I always lose the people I love,

Because nobody ever is,cause they know I'll never leave.

Win. 

I am lost for words,

I am speechless,someone teach me what to do.

Pink Bunny!

Just cannot get enough of my beloved bunny. Hehehehehe

&Sometimes life locks me out,

Times where in life,you feel so distant to things/people you used to think so important of. Then you realized your effort made wasn't recognized. Things don't feel the same,but then again,change is a constant. So my weekend was super,super fulfilling,I went to meet up the hunnie bunz at DBG on Saturday with Gab and Scottie stayed over for the night and so did my boy. &He caught a pink bunny for me! Perhaps not really caught,but we tried so hard. So the nice young man working there decided to give it to us. (: Sunday was good,the boys finally came home and they got the chance to meet Buddy! Everyone loves him now,or probably Alden just wants a piece of him for dessert.

Okay so while scanning through my old 256 mem Sd card,I found a video of Caden when he was so much younger! How cute,he was so into high school musical!

Anyway,have to crash now. Early morning tomorrow,goodnight guys!

Cause its true,nothing works like you.

Why do I always feel the way I don't want to feel?

Till date,

I am one week away from my orientation,and with that said,I am 2 weeks away from officially starting school. No more late nights dreading of going to bed,more to come are early mornings of dreading to wake up.

Think I've stonned in front of this page for more than an hour? Guess I'll be leaving this space blank tonight. I've so much to say,but I don't know how to put it down to words.

Won't you be my honey bee?

I finally met up with the girls at Tampines Ikea and I had a great time,hope they had the same. &I'm gonna work for 3 hours later!!!!!!! MONEY MONEY MONEY (: