New Years Eve,

It's finally the eve of the upcoming new year&this year has been everything but eventful.

I've a lot to be thankful of this year, my family, Gabriel and my loved ones. I know I've been awfully hard to deal with or even sometimes hang around. I couldn't have asked for a better year. This year I turned 21, the biggest changes took place, I finally get to own my own puppy, I've finally learned what its like to earn my own tiny living,finally growing up and now an Aunty to my little Chubs Ada. Growing up isn't easy and its not what we've always dreamed of but I learn something new everyday.

Although, the people I'm most thankful for this 2013 is Gabriel and of course my family. Without them I would never make it out on my own, without my family always supporting me in everything I do and Gabriel,my number one boy in the world, who never fails to give me emotional comfort and support.

2013, has been rough&tough. G and I are going through I'll say the toughest time now in our relationship, but nevertheless I'm thankful for how we are still going on strong even till today. I know if we make it through this time, we'll make it through anything. It is a stressful and difficult period for both him and I&I know I'm hard to deal with but despite all that , he still here with me. &I can never be happier than I am with him&so blessed to have him.

Not forgetting my girls, you know who you are. I'll never forget the times we've shared, the laughters and all that crap we do together. Although times have changed,but I know we're still here for each other, &for that I'm thankful.

This list can go on and on and on. But I guess all I really wanted to say is , never take anyone or anything for granted. Nothing is forever. Be thankful for the little things in life, things are given to you for a special reason. Choices you make have consequences, & we learn how to deal with it.

&To the keeper of my heart,

Thank you for being my anchor, you keep me sane,you make me believe that someone will love you for who you are&fairytales do come true. 

I love you. X

"I don't wanna let this go , I don't wanna lose control , I just wanna see the stars with you. I don't wanna say goodbye someone tell me why , I just wanna see the stars with you. "

I just wanna see the stars with you,

Sometimes we take too many things for granted, especially the ones we love.
Often than enough, we expect that they'll always be there for us, they'll always love us. &In return we just take whatever they do for us for granted.

We will only learn to appreciate and treasure the little things only when we know how easily we can just lose it.

This is probably the biggest and hardest lesson I'll learn in life, because I've taken too many things for granted. If you ever read this, you'll probably know this is for you. I don't know if you still come here to see if I type in this space. But I'd like you to know,despite how hard it will be I will endure it. Because its not so easy to just find someone who you'll do anything for and say "Its worth it."

I know I haven't been easy to be with and I'm not the perfect person. I just wish I can be the perfect one for you like you are for me.


I love you, all ways and always. X






"Its crazy how one person can affect you so much."

Only need the light when its burning low, only miss the sun when it starts to snow.

"Never give up on something you really want. Its difficult to wait, but its more difficult to regret." 

Whatever it takes,

You really don't know how much you really need someone until you know you might just lose them.

The way this heart aches right now, the excruciating pain I'm feeling. What can do, to make you feel all that love I have for you. A thousand "sorry's" wouldn't make up for the mistakes I've made, the hurt I've brought to you. I wish I knew a way I could take the hurt I did to you , away.

"A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know

Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance
I'll keep us together
I know you deserve much better

Remember the time I told you the way that I felt

And that I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around

I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance
Believe it, I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes"

What can you do when your good isn't good enough and all that you touch tumbles down?
&my best intentions keep making a mess of things, I just want to fix it somehow.