"Never give up on the people you love." - Mom 

Thank you for the perfect advices all the time, you teach me right from wrong. Everything I have today is because of you. I am what I am today because of you. X

Sometimes, its the littlest things that gives you the most memory. I don't want to ever forget how much of a happy girl you make me. Everything you'd promise you'd do for me, you always get it done. I want to always remember how it feels like to be so blessed to have you, so so blessed. Its not what you can give me, but how much you make me feel that, I'm happy when we're together and everything else does not matter. When we're together, everything just falls in place.

You deserve so much more, &I know I haven't been the perfect person yet, but I will. A thousand words wouldn't suffice how thankful I am for us, everyday. Nothing can ever replace this, because no one is just quite like you. Thank you for all the happiness you've given me thus far, it outweighs everything else we had to go through. We wouldn't have this rainbow, if we didn't brave through the rain.

Xo.

Tuesday blues,

Good morning Tuesday, dusting up the place again. Spent a far bit of time away from here, but nonetheless I have a little time to come back. Its back to work Tuesdays again for me later, 've been taking quite a long break for time to finish up my things I've left on going. Thankfully I have Gab to accompany me through my longest nights and toughest days, really eternally grateful for, without him my life would honestly be quite a mess.  So back on topic, I've spent the last month since I left this space empty doing really exciting stuff! Had a mini staycation over at Gabby's , we finally made our virgin trip to the -TRAMPOLINE PARK- !! Which we never made plans for to just be enthusiastic and go for it, along with his other brothers and Vanessa. ( Which I have no photos for , speaking of which..)  Also spent many nights , doing crazy T25 work outs, then treating ourselves to very sinful ice cream as a reward, which totally killed the work out (NO SELF CONTROL, LOL) Staying up watching Sy-fy on tv. Okay you get the drill, we just spent many nights waking up the next morning looking like pandas from River Safari. lol Also finally got to meet the little one, the very cute and chubby also known as Bb A ! Had a mini bbq party with Cuzzie and a few friends, & Gabbys family. Enough with the words, the bbq was good, lets move on to the photos I stole from Angeline's blog, Which you can read ---->here. I'm so lazy with photos these days..  Photos during the bbq , 

Then on a particular day I did an event with cuzz as well, &ended up back at Gabby's again.. haha

 Sorry, not sorry for my ugly face. K I kid,hahaha.

Also, I've finally uploaded the video of my performance during the Wedding Anniversary dinner of my Grand Aunty and Uncle's. I just hope I don't embarrass myself too much lol, its just a hobby, which I kind of enjoy. So that is all for the last one month, though it seemed like I didn't do much, I did. &It was a long month. For that, Goodnight owls, Good morning early birds. Have a great Tuesday. X
"I know these scars will bleed, but both of our hearts believe, all of these stars will guide us home." Thank you for always holding onto me despite the circumstances, I know it has been hard on you for the past month. &I thank you for being the strong one no matter how hard it gets and giving me the strength to carry on. I love you, always have&always will.   

Mistakes,

Mistakes made are never forgotten. They can be forgiven but never erased. Sometimes I really hate myself over the STUPID things I do (once again, what's new.) All I know is I'm so, so sorry. Sigh , though I know whatever I do now isn't going to change anything, what I say isn't going to change anything. I just wished today had never happened, that I hadn't screwed up. Gahhhh , WHY AM I SO STUPID.............

EVEN I WOULD'VE STABBED MYSELF FOR WHAT I DID TO YOU TODAY IF I DID IT TO ME. Fucking piece of shit (me).

Even God can't save me now. Sigh Rachael , you idiot.  

Rain rain go away, come again another day.

Its a rainy Tuesday morning / Monday night. A little nonchalant, though so stoked for X-men this week! Finally? I've waited long enough for this episode to arrive and its finally here. Back to work later again as usual and its likely almost half a days work for me, spent the weekends with Gabby and I must say I'm very thankful for his company. Oh! and I've also finally met my little chubbs precious niece who is now walking already? She grows up so fast and is heading to kinderland in December, say whut!? School at the age of 1! What was I doing at the age of 1, probably watching too much tv.

Anyhow, the past few weeks have been rather good. Everything is going well, also I've yet to mention I sang live for the first time on stage......... that actually made me realise I actually have stage fright. In case you guys don't know I sing for a hobby.

&I want to actually side track because , I'm feeling sleepy right now and hungry. I'm going to hunt for food. Will talk about my experience soon, since I have nothing to blog about and I want to keep those as memories. Goodnight , keep warm X




"I look at you , and I'm home."

Sometimes , I don't know if it ever means anything to you on how much of the things I do for you. 

I don't know what to caption my post,

"Life isn't always romantic. Sometimes, its realistic. Sometimes, things don't work out the way you want them to." - Pretty Little Liars.

Tuesday, yet again. 1:28am. Back from a long but pretty relaxed week, which I had obviously done nothing much. Except for bringing Scottie to finally check what is actually going on with his skin, and it appears that he has bacteria infection. &Also met up with the cuzzy wuzzy to help out with her online webstore (which you can check out here) + I get to visit little bb A! Whom I haven't met since she turned a month old, I'm such a bad Aunty. &I TOTALLY FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES WITH HER *INSERTS SAD EMOJI , even when I saw them again the next day. Seriously bad Aunty. Well, hopefully I'll have more time now so I can visit her more often. 

This week is going to be an intense one, have so much to do but yet again so little time. Excited, yet again nervous / worried / scared / overly stressing myself out. All these emotions all at once. 

Start of this week has been alright, Monday was a few hours ago, but I had it spent pretty well I guess. Alright, I'll head back to RavensWood&try not to freak myself out too much while watching it. Goodnight. X 

I know how much it means nothing now, but I am not going to deny how much it will still affect me.

Sometimes I don't know what I care so much about or bother so much for , when others just couldn't be.