Hit re-start,

Instagram Visuals.

 

Some of the visuals I captured over the weekend,finally the month of February is over. Now its starting anew,the month of March. My favourite month of the year! Apart from personal love for it,its because its my special month. That aside,went back to school on Friday for Specialized Ballet and finally met Gabriel on Saturday and had a fucking good time together. I like how we can spend weekends just walking from one place to another and not doing anything,sitting together during dinner,laugh at the stupid things we did during the week,play games together,feed our Dragons (Yes,we're playing DragonVale and being ridiculously obsessed with it.) Also,this weekend we went for midnight skating to the near by Macdonald's at my place to have supper and caught "Your Highness" on funshion later that night. Sunday was pretty upsetting,cause Gabriel was suppose to book back into camp on Monday instead but due to unforeseen circumstances he had to book back in today,but yet again we had a good family lunch together cause it was God-mummy's birthday! &I got to have lunch with all my favourite people in the family. So I guess overall I had a good weekend? It probably was,the best weekend so far since January. I am thankful. X 

On a side note,I got to sit on a pink chair-ed train today! (: 

So let's hope this week would be a good one. But well that highly depends on how much more time I'm going to waste not doing my Kinesiology Presentation,which is,unfortunately due tomorrow. Alright,that's probably all for now. Back to Kine! Goodnight sweethearts,have a good week ahead. (: 

If you could turn back time?

Its almost 2 years since Lao shi's departure from Young talents,and it still felt like a short period of time since then. I have been in Nafa for 12 years now? &Under her for a decade long. Even during class at times,staring at the classroom makes me miss her,the straw chair she used to sit on,stamp her feet to our rhythm cause we're like,musically un-talented? Haha,or we probably have rhythmic problems. How the floors used to be wooden flooring and now they're all carpeted with dance mats,how they used to be much bigger,but now smaller cause we've all grown up. I remember I used to tell her my dreams,of dancing here when I grow up as a profession. How she looked at me and told me,this dream is not impossible. &Now that I've realized my dream of dancing as a profession,I'm pouring shit on it. What on earth am I thinking,whatever happened to all the passion and love. Well maybe the school didn't turn out as what I expected and I'm not actually doing what I really love. But then again,its a profession. I once heard my teacher told her younger students "If you're not here cause you want to dance,you don't belong here." I miss you Lao Shi,I wished someone would turn a cold shoulder on me everytime I'm late for class like you used to so I won't be late just to get your attention,I wish someone would whack me really hard cause I'm not in the right alignment,I wish you would still scold me to wake me up,to remind me how much I love this hobby I picked up cause I just went along without knowing I'd really fall in love with it. I wished you'd remind me why I worked so hard for so long,just to get to where I am now. I've never emailed you personally since you left. I'm honestly quite bad at typing Chinese,or even composing a letter in Chinese to begin with. But I want to let you know,thank you for scolding me when I was younger,for whacking me so hard to have what I have now and for believing in me and my dreams. I really really miss you. Cause its when I have no motivation at all,I think of you. &I realized,that's what keeps me going. 

With all that said,its time to work hard and get my ass back to where I left off. 

Honestly,I am just being lazy. My laziness gets the better of me everytime,so good luck to me. Back to school tomorrow. Life's hard. But we have to find a way around it. 1 more month,I can do this. 

I hate that I have this overwhelming obsession for Pink stuff. Why O why.

My blog needs pictures. Sigh.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies,

It's compromise that moves us along. 





Happy leap year everyone. So...its been 4 years now. Nothing has changed,perhaps only in the perception of the way I see things and react to situations have. Making a choice now seems harder than just a yes or a no,but out of everything something outweighs your decision once you've decided on it and then again you re-decide. This month of February has been hard,missed school more than I expected I will. Whatever happened to the will to not miss school. Wasted my January efforts down the drain,then again music is just gonna fail me anyway. Wasted another Sem doing nothing but shit. It's hard to know you have so much going on yet no one actually knows how hard it is for you right now.

Thank God for Gabriel,but the nation keeps taking him away from me. Why isn't national service optional in Singapore! Been eating too much lately to contain my unhappiness. Life is so hard right now. March please be good. I am counting on you for good attendance and good working hours. One more month and perhaps 2 weeks and a half more of school and I'm done with year one. I want to make Year 2 a better one. Self,PLEASE DON'T DISAPPOINT ME.

So keep breathing,cause I'm not leaving you anymore.

This month has been overwhelming. &Its about to end. 

Where all regrets lie,

Its Tuesday today,Happpy Valentines day to all. Suppose to be the sweetest day ever this week,but NO.
Sick and home missing school so much this month,I ought to be dragged out and skinned alive,really. Really not enjoying the time at home which is really a waste of my time.

This has been a torturous month,not one I really enjoyed. I hope this month passes and gets over quick. Two more days until Gabriel's booking out again. And three more days till tutorial week. Alright time to get serious with school. Till then when I'm done with this dreadful month. Happy Valentines day to all. X