Lost without a trace,

Sometimes I wish life didn't make such a joke on me. Making me happy again, then tear down the little facade. To realise how I never made it out of my dreams into reality, to realise how stuck I am at where I am. I am tired, so tired. Most days I can barely hang on, but I'm trying my best.

You think you're starting to get back on track, but then you turn around and life just bites you back in the ass so hard. Laughing in your face, at how you've been so naive all these time. But who can you blame but yourself?

Gravity,

*Dust off the spider webs and dusts

"Set me free, leave me be.
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.

But you're on to me and all over me."

Time check : 1:45am

Good morning blogger, finally back home to this space after a long hiatus. Guess I really needed the time off to think about some stuff that clouded my mind for far too long. But I've come to realise that no matter how long, somethings cannot be mended however hard you try. Every choice you make has its consequence, but I've been very blessed. I get reminded everyday how loved I am with the people around me and how much more there is to life, partially cause I've been busy with the things I enjoy doing and being with people that bring so much joy to my days. 

On a brighter note, I've braved through my 10 days of ISP in August. Though my hardest and longest month, I'm glad its over. Officially back to taking classes regularly as well, thankfully Ange is in SG to push me during classes. Also back to teaching little ones, who never fail to make my days all sunny with rainbows, I don't know how I got so lucky to enjoy what I do for a living. With this said, thank you 老师 for everything you've taught me, for sharing this passion with me. I miss you on most days when I get to see the littles ones, I get reminded I was once like them, and how you'd clap so loud in class to the beat I can often feel my ears going deaf, nothing can replace those memories. I do hope wherever you are, you are doing well. 

So September has been pretty swell so far, term break has been amazing. I'm also currently a SPN(Supernatural) Fan/Addict, I caught 10 seasons within the past two months. That's kind of my guilty pleasures during my free time, which I'm actually glad I made the choice to follow the series. Even though I'm the only one amongst the rest to watch this show. I've also been taking up Pole dancing? Haha I never thought I'd say this but I really enjoy it, Beeps and I finally have a common interest apart from dogs that we can do together although she really has some talent for this its crazy how beautiful she does it? Well its almost the end of September, I cannot be more excited because Simaling is finally coming home! 10 days of amazing summer with this girl, I can hardly wait. (: 

October would be my last paper of the semester then I'm off for my long break, which I'm so excited to share because finally, after saying this for many many MANY years, the girls and I are officially going on our first overseas trip together this October. &Also in December a family trip with my fav girls after our last trip to Taiwan/HK. Hopefully then I'll have more pictures to fill this space, I know its getting really empty and wordy. 


Although times are hard, but I'm thankful. To a better end to 2015, bring it on.
Good morning/night, sweethearts. Stay Beautiful. X

"Forgiveness means giving up hope for a different past. It means knowing that the past is over, the dust has settled and the destruction left in its wake can never be reconstructed to resemble what it was. It’s accepting that there’s no magic solution to the damage that’s been caused. It’s the realization that as unfair as the hurricane was, you still have to live in its city of ruins. And no amount of anger is going to reconstruct that city. You have to do it yourself."

I'm not even sure where I'll be tomorrow, so who knows?
&As you sit in the silence, the darkness and your own thoughts captivating your mind that you wish hadn't.

Disfunctional,

"这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然後 就放手
放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头

放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有

也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透

放手 至可拥有

这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手"

Words, very much like air are weightless. But when spoken, they put so much weight to your heart, do they really weigh that much? 

Sometimes I wonder, how much meaning people put to words as they say them. Words can tell a story, they can do so much to someone. I'm just unsure if you realise, that when you say something to someone, when you put so much meaning to it, how for one split second it just suddenly doesn't mean anything anymore. 

&maybe sometimes promises aren't broken, they're just forgotten. 

What's meant to be will always be,

what's yours will always be yours. 

What's not meant to be will never be,

what's not yours will never be yours even if it ever was. 

Univeral Studios Singapore // Joey's Advance 23rd.

Hello hello hello. Time check : 2:26 pm.

Its been a really long time, today is the 4th of May. We're almost half way through 2015? Now thats what you call in a blink of an eye. So my days have been pretty good I'd say since I last pen my words in this space, I've done things I never thought I'd ever do, I've gone to places I never thought I'd go again. &My first sem results are back with positive colors, which I'm really happy about.

So to start of my first post in May, I'll talk about Joey's 23rd Birthday! She's been talking and whining about wanting to go to the beach and universal studios, so since Beeps isn't around I've decided to plan an advance birthday celebration for her since her birthday happens to fall on a weekday. We've made plans to head to the beach, but the skies weren't going with our plans so we ended up at Universal Studios Singapore! We basically took plenty of photos? I mean ......

Since we entered..

While waiting to take pictures with the mascots...

With the mascots...

&Other random times...

 As for the rest of the day, 

Well thats pretty much it, we ended our day with Joey starting with desserts first...as usual.

Then headed off to Thai express for dinner with my parents, cause Mommy wanted to give her a dinner treat. So the most exciting part of the past few weeks was this, also the release of avengers but I have no damn time to go watch it. God why. Alright now, its my bed time again. I hope I'll be diligent on updating as much as I can when I'm free, hope you guys had a good long weekend!

Happy Monday beautiful people. X

"Its been a long day, without you my friend. 

And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again.

 We've come a long way, from where we began. 

Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again. 

When I see you again."