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No one should ever force themselves to do something they don't want to. 

But I can never thank you enough of how happy a girl you make me, when it could've been the other way round. When I could've just been nothing but a wreck. 

So thank you , for showing me the rainbows and sunshine. I will always remember them. X 

High Fashion?

Recently I've been hooked onto lookbook, I spend hours flipping through page after page of inspiring looks. I like fashion, I like to dress up, but honestly which girl doesn't! Sadly, I'm never to girly enough to try dressing up. Thankfully enough, for this opportunity from my boss, I was asked to do a shoot for instagram on the new arrivals for the shop (styledasher) / dress girly,

[ The shop is located @ 2 orchard link *scape underground #01-B6/ scape #02-23/24 ]

Nervous as hell, I'm not used to being in front of a camera only shooting at me , plus the fact that I have to come up with poses / ways to make the clothes attractive... not an easy job. 1st hand experience of modeling! or so called. But thankfully I have the gorgeous experienced Desiree, who is a fashion blogger / photographer herself , read her blog here , to help me out and give me some advices on how I should or should not put my legs together, hands apart from each other , etc..

To give you the example of this ,

(Excuse the extremely dry legs.. T-T)

full outfit by styledasher

Photo credits : Desiree

Armed in : Black back slit midi dress / White lace overlay crop / Pony hair slip-ons / Double zippered mini sling

The rings are of my own, got em' from H&M!

Something out of my comfort zone for the first time, &I actually liked it. Nothing much of the unusual cause I'm still wearing sneakers.... but as for lace, not a fan of them, actually looks great as an overlay? I'm awed by the ways of fashion.

That's the end of them photos! Though there are still more, but I'll post them up another day, don't wanna cramp them up in a single post. Its becoming draggy isn't it? Thank you for reading this space again, dear who-ever-that-reads-this-space. Pebbles just got her double yearly jab today, getting a little clingy. Gonna get some snuggle time with her! Love y'all. X

Sunny mornings,

Happy Thursday everyone! Spent the weekends at Gabby's , basically ice cream, food, eating and alot of sleeping. I really don't get how lazy we can be, its .... ridiculous. Lol I think we'd rather forgo the food just to have more sleep. Also, brought the little furball for walks cause gabby had to stay home to look after the place as they had people over servicing their air-conditioners. 

Also if you noticed, Scottie's leg has a little red patch due to his constant nibbling , which I'm not sure why he does that. At first we knew it was the use of wrong shampoo, but after changing his shampoo he still nibbles on that part of his leg and the red-ness hasn't gone down, checked his skin also, there isn't fleas or whatsoever... Wonder if anyone knows the reason to his skin irritation? 

Well apparently, Scottie was too busy enjoying the scenery to be interested in a selfie of himself or any with me. I wouldn't blame him either, who wouldn't be busy with a bright sunny morning! Wish pebbles wouldn't irritate him, so they could go on walks together or perhaps stay in the same place together...

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I lost track of time oh my god. I spent a good whole 2hours 45minutes on this ultimately short post.
"Ruse of engagement" obviously caught too much of my attention.

Also, I'm getting really sleepy. My eye bags and eyelids are dying for some beauty rest. Meeting the girls later for some girly appointment. Not something I'm actually really looking forward to, but what the hell, I've agreed to it. Again, I cannot believe myself over the stupid things I do....or rather I'd give and take in exchange for time with the girls. So Goodnight my little planet. Tomorrow will be a better day. X


"I've learned being happy just requires you to be contented. When you are contented, simplest things make you the happiest." - Thank you for making me so happy, like a flopping little bunny. (:





P.S I need a new portable handy cam. :/ Sponsors? hahaha

It feels like a perfect night for breakfast at midnight,

(Excuse, the birthday selfie. )

This weekend , I turned 22. Time really flies, it felt just like yesterday when I turned 21.. and in a blink of an eye , I am another year older. Birthday resolutions? This year , I will accomplish finishing school, earn as much money and save as much as I can, TO STOP PROCRASTINATING AT EVERYTHING I DO , & most importantly be a better person. I have tons of flaws & honestly, you're gonna tell me "Who doesn't?" , but I really don't want to make that as an excuse for me to take for granted that I'll always be forgiven / given second chances because "everyone makes mistakes." 

That's just not it. In life we make mistakes yes, but we don't repeat them. Its not going to be "okay" anymore, if we keep repeating the things we said sorry for. Which in another sense, what was the point of the "sorry"? Anyone can say they're sorry for the things they've done, but it takes a different person to actually learn from it. &Time and time again, I've done that. It really does get quite irritating at a certain extent. 

&aside from that , I procrastinate alot. I've learned from one of my bff's that its annoying. She once told me, "There is no point in whining about the situation, if it's really too fucked up to continue , quit. If not, suck it up and get it over and done with. As a friend , I have to tell you that you procrastinate too much and its annoying." (not exactly that, but somewhere along the line) - now this, woke me up. Of course, at some point everyone does , but for me , its all.the.time. Which I can understand from her point of view. So now I've learned that its either I suck it up , or I quit. But most of the time , I suck it up. (Only the weak quit. haha okay I'm kidding) because I'm just too much of a coward to tell straight up I quit, also I find it illogical to always say I quit , right?  

So that is pretty much about it for the birthday resolutions. As for now , I'm just going to briefly sum up my Birth-date and celebration. I had a pre-celebration with the family, because they have foreseen that I would have plans on the actual day itself, and I was surprised with a handmade/ made from scratch Barbie jelly cake! Done by my talented Aunt, but I can't seem to find the full family photo we took and the one of the cake, no one uploaded it, sadly.

On the day itself, I had my date with me aka. Gabriel the bunny, who brought me out for the special day! (~Can you feel , the love tonight~) , who also...SURPRISED ME AT MY WORK PLACE THE NIGHT BEFORE TO PICK ME UP, and stayed the night. Although we didn't managed to finish our movie before we knocked out... Also, pardon the lack of visuals, because the smart me forgot to bring my memory card out, while lugging the entire camera bag out. Sometimes, I cannot believe myself over the stupid things I do.........

Dinner with the girls and their +1's at Vivo's JPOT! First time there, the waiting time was .. not over the top long. The food was, average I guess. But the company was , wonderful. I cannot ask for the better few to celebrate this day with. So if any of you have yet to try JPOT, I guess you should give it a try, because this.. was the first time I had my own steamboat pot to myself. 

That's basically it! I had a wonderful 22nd, thankful to all that celebrated with me. Also my dearest simaling , who got more than half of the year 2011 batch to sing me a birthday song over the phone and personally wish me one by one (cutest thing done by far haha). Next year when I turn 23, I'll hope for... the same happy feeling I had this year again (:

So thank you for reading, if anyone actually did lol. This is the most I've typed in the longest time. Over something, not so depressing. It has been a really tough few months, &I'm really glad its all good now, also thankful to all those darlings of mine that stood by me despite me being so depressed half the time. &If there's one thing I've learnt during these tough times, is that, you really should never take anything/anyone for granted, its true, that you don't know just how much something/someone means to you, until you realize you can lose it with a slip of a tongue, or finger. Think before you speak, words can hurt more than knifes sometimes. 

Have a good Sunday everyone. X

Worst week I've had. I just feel like hiding. When will all this madness end?

I'm so, so exhausted. 

"I'll still be with you even when the sun isn't shining, when the skies turn grey, when your world is upside down and when everyone else has gone away."

I guess no one ever made me feel the way I do when I'm around you. They say "Time that you enjoy wasting , isn't time wasted." Though it may not seem like that , but even when we're not doing anything when we're together , the day still feels complete when I'm with you. 

Thank you for the beautiful days , when I least deserved them. 

Sometimes , the more you try to hide something , the more it shows. 

Happiness is the art of never holding in your mind the memory of any unpleasant thing that has passed. Being happy doesn’t mean  perfect. It just means you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.