"I feared 
in love, but 
that fear was
 crushed by the
 act of courage 
to keep the fire
 burning despite
 the winds of 
self-deception 
against terrible 
beauty. "

~Nanaya

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I wouldn't know what its like to be in your shoes. I never will. I wouldn't say I don't understand you and your actions either. And I've accepted the fact that, you've developed feelings you can't control. Because I know everyone just wants to find someone to love&you're only human. I just wished, I wasn't a part of this. &I just wished everything hadn't got this complicated. You can't just say sorry for doing the things you knew you should've never done. 

“'Cause waking up without you is like drinking from an empty cup.

"If its meant to be , it will be." , you said to her. It never was meant to be me , was it?
I don't know what to say or feel. I just feel like I'm the one caught in between instead, obstructing what might make you truly happy. I want to see you happy and that's all I ever wanted. Whatever move or decision we make now is going to hurt someone, but I don't want it to be you. I'd rather it be me. I want you to make a decision for yourself, not for anyone else. Not me, not anyone.

"Love isn't perfect. It isn't a fairytale or a storybook. And it doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without. Love is work, but most of all, love is realizing that every hour, every minute, and every second was worth it because you did it together."

Because everyday with you feels perfect, my day feels different, I'm , happy.

A dancers home , is on the stage.

"We don't dance because we can , nor because we crave it, 
we dance to tell our soul , we dance to live , 
we dance to become ourselves , we dance because we must."

"When you love two people at once."

 

By CAROLINE BROMLEY

"Love is both a feeling and an action. Loving two people at once is a little more complicated.

The feeling is simple. Meet somebody. Find them attractive. Find them funny. Find them quirky, find them refreshing, find them to be everything your partner is not. Call it lust, call it love. Call it something, because at the very least, it is something. You cannot deny that.

Lie awake at night. Picture their skin. Think of their body. Re-live each thrilling conversation in your minds eye and consider the thought of being with them. Fight down butterflies. Fight the urge to call them. Turn over thoughts in your mind that make you shiver with a strange electricity. Call it love.

The feeling of love is a simple one… in the beginning. It’s the one you felt years ago when meeting your partner for the first time. It’s the one that made you rip each other’s clothes off in their tiny apartment one Friday evening after drinks. It’s the one that peaked the first time you sat across from each other in a coffee shop and swore that you’d be there for each other forever. It’s the one that slowly faded as the day-to-day routine took over and the butterflies settled their feet.

The feeling of love is a simple one. The action is a little bit more complicated.

When you love someone, you choose them. You choose them over other people who pull at your heartstrings and play on your fantasies. You choose to remain with them, to stand by them, to find a way to fall in love with them all over again if you have to.

Feeling love for two people at once is not an excuse. It does not make you fall prey to breaking someone’s heart in half and leaving them out in the cold. Not if you’ve made a commitment to that person. Not if you still want to be with them. Not if the future you envision still belongs in part to that person and all that they bring to your life.

Loving two people at once is a fork in the road that takes the brave and enduring in one direction; the fearful and flighty in another. If we were to choose the more alluring path each time that we faced this fork, we would lead a life rife with passion and excitement, but devoid of so many things that build the cornerstones of lasting relationships. Things like patience. Diligence. Understanding. The acceptance that love isn’t always the way it’s portrayed at the end of a Disney film. That sometimes it’s messy or boring or hard but it can also be the firmest thing we have to hang onto when the rest of the world starts to shift.

Loving two people at once isn’t a matter of choosing the one who excites you over the one who has become commonplace. Loving somebody in a committed way means understanding that someday you may want to love someone else. May want to be with someone else. May want a lot of impossible things that you will simply have to turn over inside your mind then let go of. Because the choice to love one other person lives on long after the butterflies have died and the whirlwind has subsided. It is choice that keeps the passion alive. It is the choice that keeps love thriving no matter who or what else comes its way. It is the choice that has the power to renew a relationship over and over again. If – God forbid – we decide that we are willing to fight for it."

Give me love,

Life gets much easier when you learn to accept all the apologies you never got.  The key is to be thankful for every experience – positive or negative. It’s taking a step back and saying, “Thank you for the lesson.” 

Forgiveness is a promise – one you want to keep. When you forgive someone you are making a promise not to hold the unchangeable past against the present.

If you're a bird, I'm a bird.

 But who am I , to have the rights to get mad, and blame you for everything that has happened. I, can't say for myself that , I'm perfect, I'm full of flaws and no matter how sorry I am and how much I try to make up for it, it'll never be enough and I acknowledge that.

But there's just this bitterness in me, knowing I'm not good enough not because I don't try to, but because I know no matter how hard and how much I try, I never will. &This breaks my heart, because I want to be the best for you. I want to be perfect for you, because I know you deserve nothing less.

Anyhow, I want to thank you , for making me a better person, for telling me hard how much of an imperfect person I actually am, many times when I think I'm not. Because I deserve to hear the truth instead of lies, and the truth hurts. I know you want me to be a better person, not because of you or anyone else, but myself.



Though the only thing I know is how much I really love you. How much I really want you.





I know life hasn't been a bed of roses with me, but if you'll wait for me, I promise there will always be a rainbow.





I love you, everyday and always. X